Lebanese (non)Blonde

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell.

– Edna St. Vicent Millay

Scenes From an Italian Restaurant – Billy Joel
The Scientist – Coldplay
I Just Don’t Think I’ll Ever Get Over You – Colin Hay
You and I Both – Jason Mraz
Out Loud – Dispatch
Everything Falls Apart – Dog’s Eye View
Drifted Apart – Meaghan Smith
I Don’t Know What to Do – Pete Yorn & Scarlett Johannson
Close Up – Frou Frou
I Want to Hold Your Hand – TV Carpio
For You to Notice – Dashboard Confessional
The Space Between – Dave Matthews Band
I’m no Angel – Allman Brothers
Revelry – Kings of Leon
Breakfast at Tiffanys – Deep Blue Something
I Wish You Were Here – Incubus
Back 2 Good – Matchbox Twenty
Don’t Look Back in Anger – Oasis
Bring On the Wonder – Susan Enan feat. Sarah McLachlan
Hide and Seek – Imogen Heap

Poetry in motion

So, I have decided to try my hand at poetry:

Poetry!

Take a look and gimme a 10!!! :)

Ever thine, ever mine, ever lyrics???

New article posted on BiggerThanMusic.com

Go check it out!!

Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours

If I Had a Million Dollars

Las Vegas is sort of like how God would do it if he had money.

– Steve Wynn

 

Money – Pink Floyd
Kings and Queens – 30 Seconds to Mars
All Right Now – Free
Magic Man – Heart
Gone – NSYNC
Don’t Look Back in Anger – Oasis
Lost – Gorilla Zoe
Nothing Left to Lose – Mat Kearney
The Luckiest – Ben Folds
I’m N Luv (Wit a Stripper) – T-Pain
Truth or Dare – N.E.R.D.
Beautiful Stranger – Madonna
Show Stopper – Danity Kane
Gimme More – Britney Spears
Party Like a Rock Star – Shop Boyz
I Can’t Get No Sleep – DJ Keoki
Livin’ on a Prayer – Bon Jovi
Take a Walk on the Wild Side – Lou Reed
Got Money – Lil Wayne f. T-Pain
$10 – M.I.A.
Viva la Vida – Coldplay
We Fly High (Ballin’) – Jim
My Favorite Mistake – Sheryl Crow
Push – Matchbox 20
Save Tonight – Eage Eye Cherry
Moneymaker – Ludacris f. Pharrell
Poker Face – Lady Gaga
Still Not a Player – Big Pun
Bad Day – Daniel Powter
99 Problems – Jay-Z
Loser – Beck
Control Myself – LL Cool J f. JLo
Bright Lights – Matchbox Twenty
Too Much – Spice Girls
Use Somebody – Kings of Leon
Low – Flo Rida f. T-Pain
Sugar, We’re Goin Down – Fall Out Boy
Tumbling Dice – The Rolling Stones
Cheating – Jettingham
Unpredictable – Jamie Foxx f. Ludacris
Addictive – Truth Hurts
Mercy – Duffy
The Joker – Steve Miller Band
Poor – Meaghan Smith
Danger – Mystikal
Shook Me All Night Long – AC/DC
In Too Deep – Sum 41
Better Days – Citizen King
Starstrukk – 3OH!3 f. Katy Perry
When You’re Good to Mama – Queen Latifah (from “Chicago”)
Waking Up in Vegas – Katy Perry
Good Girls Go Bad – Cobra Starship f. Leighton Meester
Come Out and Play – The Offspring
Nine in the Afternoon – Panic At The Disco
Walk Away – Kelly Clarkson
Come Monday – Jimmy Buffett
I Go Blind – Hootie and the Blowfish
After Midnight – Eric Clapton
Two Coins – Dispatch
Against All Odds – Gavin DeGraw
Oh Yes! – Juelz Santana
here it goes again – ok go
Money Honey – Lady Gaga
Hit Me With Your Best Shot – Pat Benetar
Laid – James
Sweet Transvestite – Tim Curry (from “Rocky Horror Picture Show”)
A Little Less Conversation – Elvis Presley

Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming…

Love.
Love…
Love?
Love!
Love.

love [luhv]
–noun
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one’s neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.

The ancient Greeks and Romans had several different words for love .

The Japanese and Buddhists have two.

Love is not just a word or a feeling. Science has shown that our bodies actually respond to this affliction. Neurotransmitters respond, hormones are released, goosebumps, palpitations.

Love has been the Muse of writers for thousands of years.

Aristotle said that “Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.”

Virgil proclaimed that “love conquers all.”

According to Chinese proverb, “a heart that loves is always young.”

Shakespeare proclaimed his love of Love time and time again in his plays and poems.

Dr. Suess explains that one knows they are in love “when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

Well doc, I can never sleep, but I am pretty sure it has nothing to do with love.

Or does it?

I had every intention of writing about my desire to fall in love, but I sat here for about 45 minutes unable to type anything further.

A friend told me that before I start trying to figure out who my great love was, I needed to figure out who *I* was.

I am now watching the “Sex and the City” movie for the 90th time (and the second time tonight) and something Samantha says is sticking out:

“I’m gonna say the one thing you aren’t supposed to say. I love you…but I love me more. I’ve been in a relationship with myself for 49 years and that’s the one I need to work on.”

I do not think I have actually ever loved myself. Maybe when I was a kid. I have moments where I think I am f*cking awesome, but they never last and I always go back to thinking about how much I suck.

I have a penchant for dwelling on all of my failures, mistakes and wrongs.

I constantly compare my life to others who are doing better and that are happier (or seem happier) than I am.

So, the new question I find myself needing to answer:

How do I fall in love with myself?

What is “pop music” anyway?

Hello faithful readers (and the random late-night Word Press browser!)

I just wanted to share with you all the other blog I am writing for (GASP!).

No no, it is not the same emotional basket case writing you find here.

Bigger Than Music is a website devoted to all things music.

Yours truly has just landed the gig of “Senior Contributing Columnist – Pop/Rock genres”

Awesome title, eh?

Well… my first editorial is posted and I would love for you all to check it (and the website) out!

THANKS!!

Infinite x’s and o’s,
Courtney

Beautifully Broken

Why do you stay in prison
when the door is so wide open?

Move outside the tangle of fear-thinking.
Live in silence.

– Jalal ad-Din Rumi

Say Hello, Wave Goodbye – David Gray
Fool in the Rain – Led Zeppelin
Lullaby – Shawn Mullins
She Talks to Angels – Black Crows
Slept So Long – Jay Gordon of Orgy (from “Queen of the Damned”)
St. Patrick’s Day – John Mayer
Don’t Fear the Reaper – Blue Oyster Cult
A Long December – Counting Crows
Comfortably Numb – Pink Floyd
In Colo – Jamey Johnson
EZ – Pete Yorn
Desperately Wanting – Better Than Ezra
Either Way – Guster
Breathe Me – Sia
If It Makes You Happy – Sheryl Crow
Strange Condition – Pete Yorn
Be Like That – 3 Doors Down
Nothing Left to Lose – Mat Kearney
Motorcyle Drive By – Third Eye Blind
Life is Wonderful – Jason Mraz
Nightingale – Norah Jones
Wonderwall – Oasis
You Know I’m No Good – Amy Winehouse
Boston – Augustana
Let Go – Frou Frou
Just Feel Better – Carlos Santa f. Steven Tyler
Desperado – The Eagles
Angels on the Moon – Thriving Ivory
Sunday Mornings – Maroon 5
It’s Only Life – Kate Voegele
Read My Mind – The Killers
Drowning – Cleveland Lounge
Last Beautiful Girl – Matchbox Twenty
There Is a Light That Never Goes Out – The Smiths
Only Living Boy In New York – Simon and Garfunkel
Whiter Shade of Pale – Procul Harum
L.A. Song – Beth Hart
Positively 4th Street – Bob Dylan
Happier – Guster
What You Wish For – Guster
Look What You’ve Done – Jet
Walk Away – Ben Harper
No Suprises – Radiohead
Stop and Stare – OneRepublic
Full of Grace – Sarah McLachlan
Vienna – Billy Joel
Breakdown – Jack Johnson
Two Points for Honesty – Guster
Low – Kelly Clarkson
The Little Things – Danny Elfman
Auld Lang Syne – performed by Mairi Campbell and Dave Francis (from “Sex and the City”)
Revelry – Kings of Leon
Caring is Creepy – The Shins
Mad World – Gary Jules
Good – Better Than Ezraz
Wild Horses – performed by The Sundays
Our House – Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young
Moment of Happiness (from “Innocence”) – composed by Christophe Beck (from “Buffy”)
World Spins Madly On – The Weepies
The Long Day is Over – Norah Jones

In My Place

What happens in Jersey, gets buried in Jersey.

– bumper sticker

(Editor’s note: I did not realize how many Jersey-born artists I had!)

Johnny B. Goode – Chuck Berry (voted the #1 Guitar Song of All Time – Berry used a Gibson by Les Paul)
Light My Fire – The Doors
Kings and Queens – 30 Seconds to Mars
Another Brick in the Wall, Part 2 – Pink Floyd
Love Shack – The B52’s
Doo Wop (That Thing) – Lauryn Hill
Lust for Life – Iggy Pop
Get What You Give – New Radicals
I’m a Flirt – R. Kelly
Shut Up – Black Eyed Peas
Free Your Mind – En Vogue
Green Light – John Legend f. Andre 3000
Forever – Chris Brown
Reelin in the Years – Steely Dan
Give Me One Reason – Tracy Chapman
Baby Got Back – Sir Mix Alot
Ever the Same – Rob Thomas
It’s Not Right But It’s Okay – Whitney Houston
Tonight Tonight – Smashing Pumpkins
I’m a Thug – Trick Daddy
Regulators – Warren G f. Nate Dogg
Crash – Gwen Stefani
Dead Flowers – The Rolling Stones
Jersey Girl – Bruce Springsteen
Cold Hard B*** – Jet
New Jersey Girl – Nerf Herder
So Jersey – Bouncing Souls
It’s Goin Down – Young Jock
Gangsta’s Paradise – Coolio
Sweetest Girl – Wyclef Jean f. Akon
Gossip Folk – Missy Elliot f. Ludacris
Welcome to Paradise – Green Day
Conceited – Remy Ma
Sexy Lady – Young Berg
Lovebug – The Jonas Brothers
No Scrubs – TLC
Pump It – Black Eyed Peas
She Hates Me – Puddle of Mudd
In the End – Linkin Park
One Way or Another – Blondie
America – Simon and Garfunkel
Curbside Prophet – Jason Mraz
Running with the Devil – Van Halen
As Cool As I Am – Dar Williams
Oh What a Night! – Frankie Valli & The Four Seasons
Two Points For Honesty – Guster
Heartless – Kanye
I’m Movin Out – Billy Joel
Smooth Criminal – Alien Ant Farm
Short Skirt, Long Jacket – Cake
Puttin on the Ritz – performed by The Stray Cats
Hung Up – Madonna
Thnks Fr Th Mmrs – Fall Out Boy
The Way You Look Tonight – Frank Sinatra
Bodies – Drowning Pool
Diva – Beyonce
I Do Not Hook Up – Kelly Clarkson
Come Out and Play – Offspring
I Know What Boys Like – The Waitresses
Barbie Girl – Aqua
Circus – Britney Spears
Flavor of the Week – American Hi-Fi
Hanginaround – The Counting Crows
With A Little Help From My Friends – The Beatles
Ch-Check it Out – Beastie Boys
Crushcrushcrush – Paramore
You’re a Jerk – New Boys
I’m from New Jersey – John Gorka
Jungle Boogie – Kool & the Gang
Our House – Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young
Alright – Supergrass
Pretty Woman – Supergrass
Brandy – Looking Glass
Dinosaur – Ke$ha
Call On Me – Eric Prydz
Hit Me With Your Best Shot – Pat Benetar
Gonna Get Thru This – Daniel Bedingfield
Don’t Panic – Coldplay (opening track to “Garden State”)
Sugar Town – performed by Zooey Deschanel
It’s My Party – Lesley Gore
A Little Less Conversation – Elvis Presley
Mercedes Benz – Janis Joplin
Come On Get Happy – The Partridge Family (David Cassidy!)

I Get Around

For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel’s sake. The great affair is to move.

– Robert Louis Stevenson

L.A. Woman – The Doors
The Adventures of Grandmaster Flash – Grandmaster Flash & The Furious Five
Hotel California – The Eagles
Outta Space – Mellow Trax
Put Your Hands Up For Detroit – Fedde la Grande
The Ocean Breeze is Salty – Modest Mouse
Come Sail Away – Styx
Ghost Town – The Specials
Deport Them – Sean Paul f. Mr. Vegas & Wayne Wonder
Where the Streets Have No Name – U2
6th Avenue Heartache – The Wallfowers
Darkside of the Moon – Pink Floyd
Cold Desert – Kings of Leon
Pimpin All Over the World – Ludacris f. Bobby Valentino
Whole World – Outkast
Truckin – The Grateful Dead
Sweet Home Alabama – Lynard Skynard
Fast Car – Tracy Chapman
Cowboy Take Me Away – Dixie Chicks
Lebanese Blonde – Thievery Corporation
American Boy – Estelle
Empire State of Mind – Jay Z f. Alicia Keys
All At Sea – Jamie Cullum
Guentenamera – performed by Buena Vista Social Club
House of the Rising Sun – The Animals
Magic Carpet Ride – Steppenwolf
Such Great Heights – performed by The Postal Service
Babylon – David Gray
Motorcycle Drive By – Third Eye Blind
Africa – Toto
Under the Bridge – Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Amazon – M.I.A.
Angels on the Moon – Thriving Ivory
Everyday is a Winding Road – Sheryl Crow
These Boots Were Made for Walking – Nancy Sinatra
The Sweet Escape – Gwen Stefani f. Akon
The Space Between – Dave Matthews Band
Viva la Vida – Coldplay
Fantastic Voyage – Coolio
Chariot – Gavin Degraw
The Only Living Boy in New York – Simon and Garfunkel
You Found Me – The Fray
All Along the Watchtower – Jimi Hendrix
Diamons of Sierra Leone – Kanye West
Far Away – Nickelback
Breakaway – Kelly Clarkson
Carolina in My Mind – James Taylor
American Woman – The Guess Who
Positively 4th Street – Bob Dylan
Drive – Incubus
Real World – Matchbox 20
Somewhere Only We Know – Jet
Holiday in Spain – Counting Crow
Vagabond – Wolfmother
The Great Escape – Boys Like Girls
Around the World – ATC
The Devil Went Down to Georgia – Charlie Daniels Band
Kokomo – The Beach Boys
Joy to the World – Three Dog Night
Shut Up and Drive – Rihanna
He Went to Paris – Jimmy Buffet
London Bridge – Fergie
Across the Universe – The Beatles
Walking on the Sun – Smashmouth
Winding Road – Bonnie Somerville
Wild World – Cat Stevens
Waking Up in Vegas – Katy Perry
Whenever, Wherever – Shakira
Bring On the Wonder – Susan Enan f. Sarah McLachlan
Downtown – Petula Clark
Come Away With Me – Norah Jones
Runaway – Linkin Park
New York Girls – Morningwood
Transylvanian Concubine – Rasputina
Last Train to Clarksville – The Monkees
California Dreaming – Mamas and Papas
Istanbul (not Constantinople) – performed by The Trevor Horn Orchestra
Wrong Way – Sublime
Travelin’ Band – CCR
Les Champs-Elysees – Joe Dassin

You may be right, I may be crazy

The insane, on occasion, are not without their charms.

– Kurt Vonnegut

I Like It Rough – Lady Gaga
Crazy B**** – Buckcherry
Murder, He Says – Tori Amos (from “Mona Lisa Smile”)
Crazy For This Girl – Evan and Jaron
Caring is Creepy – The Shins
Before He Cheats – Carrie Underwood
Love Fool – The Cardigans
Going Gone – Blackeyed Peas and Jack Johnson
Don’t Trust Me – 3OH!3
Gunpowder and Lead – Miranda Lambert
Mad World – Gary Jules
Happiness is a Warm Gun – The Beatles
Supermodel – Jill Sobule
The Sounds of Silence – Simon and Garfunkel
Oh You Pretty Things – David Bowie
Basket Case – Green Day
Crazy (x2)- Gnarls Barkley and Aerosmith
Ain’t No Rest For the Wicked – Cage the Elephant
Break Stuff – Limp Bizkit
World Spins Madly On – The Weepies
Crazy Little Thing Called Love – Queen
Crazy Love – Van Morrison and Bob Marley
White Rabbit – Jefferson Airplane
Out of My Head – Fastball
Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood – The Animals
I Put a Spell on You – Screamin Jay Hawkins
Let Me Borrow That Top – Kelly
Wrong Way – Sublime
Song 2 – Blur